How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss?

How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss?

How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?

How do you block the sound of a voice, you'd know anywhere?



Oh I really should have known, 

By the time you drove me home,

By the vagueness in your eyes,

Your casual good-byes,

By the chill in your embrace,

The expression on your face, that told me,

Maybe you might have, some advise to give, 

on how to be, insensitive.



How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?

How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?

How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend?

How do you teach your heart it's a crime, to fall in love again?



Well you prob'bly won't remember me,

It's prob'bly ancient history,

I'm one of the chosen few,

Who went ahead and fell for you,

I'm out of bold, I'm out of touch,

I fell too fast, I feel too much,

I thought that you might have, some advise to give, 

on how to be, insensitive.



Oh I really should have known,

By the time you drove me home,

by the vagueness in your eyes, 

You casual good-byes,

By the chill in your embrace,

The expression on your face, that told me,

Maybe you might have, some advise to give, on how to be, insensitive.

(how to be) insensitive

(how to be) insensitive

(how to be)

Sa dalawang panig na narinig ko, parehas silang may dahilan, nasa
katwiran, may laman, at kung ano pa,,

Pero.. iisa lng masasabi ko.. pangsariling kagustuhan ang gusto nila
ipahayag.  Hindi para sa ikabubuti ng bayan.

Mas lalong makakasama at gugulo.. ok na sana ang aksyon. nasimulan na..
pero.. sana sa mabuting paraan. sa mabuting gawain. (pero ano??) aba
malay ko!

Ang presidente. hindi basta basta aalis sa upuan. dahil malaking
kahihiyan sa kanya iyon. kahit na alam n niyang mali ang ginagawa,
puro issue!! issue!! balita!! balita!! zte!! basura!! lahat ng maiisip
mong dumi sa lipunan.. -----di mapatalsik ang presidente.. busy sa
trono. nagpapayaman..

Sabihin na nating, madami nga ang naitulong ni gloria.,. pero iba ang
tao.. kapag may napuna nang mali.. lagot ka.. for sure.. chupee ka.
ganyan ang tao..

---wag kayo magagalit sakin aa. haha.. sa punto ko lang yan. naasar n
kasi ako sa mga nangyayari ngayon sa pinas eh. puro botohan. impeach..
issue,, another issue(tambakan ang current issue.) kakaasar diba??

tingin moh??

Sang-ayon ka ba sa aksyon ni trillanes?? coup de etat?? martial law??
cha cha?? lahat na!!!

Last Saturday, I went to my Mom’s house in Sampaloc to get a few of the things that I left.  I was able to get my study table (a gift from my Granddad when I was about 5 years old), the computer monitor, the table and my big box of docs…

When I was checking out the docs later that afternoon, my hands fell upon dozens of Autograph (Note) books.  Tuloy, I went back to the memories all over again…

On one autograph book, there were the names of Jennifer, Cristina, Karenn, Dyan, Pamela, and Mae Anne…they were my classmates in elementary…good friends…the ones I usually talk to during recess and lunch time…it made me wonder how they are now…are they single or married or in a relationship?  Do they have kids or not?

There were some autographs naman that I got during high school.  As I read the profiles of Layla, Ever, Chic. Reagan, Charlie, Juno, Dyanne, Cherry, Irma, Carmel, Abby, Rochelle, Rustom and Maja (who filled a lot of pages of the autographs), I couldn’t help but smile…My happiest days in high school kasi were spent with them…and reading all about them again made me reminisce how everything was when I was young…all the things we have all been through together just flashed back in my mind that it brought both a smile in my lips and tears in my eyes…(para akong praning shet!)

I also saw an autograph with profiles of my friends when I was still in 3rd year...most of them were from Batch '98 (4-Sales sila noon)...hay...I miss them sobra...

Then I saw a couple of autographs, which I got in 1^st year high school…

WAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!  Who would’ve thought that I would see the name of my crush back then!  And I can’t even imagine now that “Yeah, crush ko nga siya!”, and that I even wrote his name using the best penmanship I could ever use…and using my first Parker!

My God! Nakakahiya!!!!

The guy is somebody from I-Bonifacio…a mysterious but somehow troublesome cutie pie…HECK!  Siya nga ang crush ko noon…I was totally head over heels over that freaking cutie…but I never told anyone about it…because common “crush” siya back then…Be it girls, be it gays…crush siya talaga!  If ever he gets the chance to read this…Oh my God!  Kakahiya talaga!  Pero knowing him, he would probably just be silent about it…deadma yun eh.  And besides, we haven’t talked for a while na rin, so I guess he will never read this post ever!

Another name filled most of the autographs…and an old journal, which until now, my mom would tease me about…a journal, which kept all my dreams, my young romance, my heartaches, and my life with this certain guy…

Siya na yon…my ex…Bij…

I loved him so much, yet he was the first person who hurt me.

Anyway, as I was reading the entries, I couldn’t help but think:  “PUTANG INA!  AKO BA TALAGA ANG NAGSULAT NITO??  KAKADIRI!  NO WONDER INAALASKA AKO NG MOMMY KO!”

Oh well…memories, memories…

Avoiding me will never help us solve anything…

Anyways, I’m sorry…

Let’s be friends again…

- ANNE -

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

I was chatting a while ago...kaso, may tumabla sa akin...

Sure, I was asking so many questions...

Sure, maybe the person's really not that comfortable talking about something...

Sure, I guess it really is none of my business...

Kaya lang, it hurts me that somebody would do that to me.  I mean, I just wanted to know more about them...I just wanted to know them by heart...to somewhat feel a little closer to THEM and not just to one person, though we haven't had that chance to really bond.  Really, I was just trying to be nice and all...guess this one person does not think so.

Now I don't know if I'd still feel comfortable talking to them...in complete honesty, I like them...I love their "friendship"...I love the fact that they could make it work out just the way it is...and I am happy for them...

Ang sakit nung feeling na tinatabla ka, when all you wanted is to be a friend...you know, yung tipong you could share everything and all that shit...

Hay nako...

I'll get over this...

Pananabla lang yan...

I've had more pains than that...

Friend ko pa rin siya kahit nakasakit siya...

Heavenly Father, full of grace...

Bless my boyfriend's handsome face...

Bless his hair that cutely curls...

Keep him away from other girls...

Bless his arms that are so strong...

May they stay where they belong...

Bless his eyes that tend to roam...

Keep them from seeing what is not to be shown...

Bless this guy I always miss...

Bless his lips I love to kiss...

Bless this guy I love to clench...

Bless his tongue I love to French...c",)

Bless his arms that hold me tight...

Bless his body that feels so right...

If ever he would read this prayer of mine...

Bless the thoughts that enter his mind...

AMEN

This morning, I was visited by a very dear and good friend...

I was so happy to see him!  Sobra!  Kung pwede nga lang to stay with him until the end of the day I would...kaso I am at the office slaving away with tons of docs to file and make...

We've been the best of friends since the last grading period of 2nd year high school...He's the last person I could think of to be a friend...(oh well, maybe next to Pornstar!)...He's not naman suplado or I was not hooked to anyone naman that time...Siguro I was just too serious with studies (yeah right!) then kaya I never took time to really mingle with people other than my classmates...(II-Matapat siya...II-Matulungin ako).

I met him February 14^th of 1997 sa Batu-Bato Mt. Resort (thanks for reminding me Best Friend! C”,))…Camping naming nun…Midnight ata yun eh…Out of nowhere itong siraulong ito binati ako ng HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!  Eh ni hindi ko nga siya kilala!  Maraming beses na nag-umepal siya sa akin that night…asar ako that time…pero deep inside nakakatawa…Kasi for the first time may nag-effort na magpapansin sa akin (HAHAHA!)

He was formally introduced to me by Wraich...silang dalawa ang close friends talaga…By Monday the following week, may Butterfingers na ako…by Tuesday may Cadbury na ako…by Wednesday may M&Ms na ko…with matching sign pa sa Autograph ko…(ngek! Uso un non!)…by Thursday, kausap ko na siya ng todo…by Friday, kausap ko na siya sa landline…

I learned that time na may girlfriend na siya…later on, nalaman ko that they broke up because of me…(UYYY…UMIIBIG>>>)…later on, we became closer friends and we constantly talk on the phone, usually tumatagal ng 2-3 hours a night…I’ve learned a great deal about him during those times…I’ve learned to appreciate his presence…I’ve learned to expect his call everyday and every night…In short, I’ve learned to love him big deal…

Eventually, we became an item…Wherever he was, andun ako…wherever I was, andun siya…Maraming naging problema, marami kaming pinag-awayan, maraming beses na nag-cool off kami…pero maraming good memories…We were together for one and a half years…and kahit matagal na yon, I look back with a smile on my face (at may konting galit minsan kasi panget ang reason kung bakit kami tuluyang nag-break!)

Now, my best friend is married to this wonderful woman…and I am committed to a man who I am sure loves me so much…pero nothing would ever change the friendship we share…

It’s always nice having a person who knows you inside and out…it’s nice having a person to lean on during the times when you feel totally down and out…somebody who knows even with the sound of your voice if you’re OK or not…somebody who prays for you at all times…somebody who makes you laugh if you have problems…someone who always reminds you to be strong, to be kind, to be happy, to be just yourself…

 I’m so grateful that I have him as my best friend…Kahit pa matagal kaming hindi nagkikita or nagkakausap, I know he’s always there for me…I hurt him so bad, pero I’m thankful that andiyan pa rin siya…I have so much to thank him for…pero I know anything that I could and would say or do will never be enough to express how much I appreciate having a friend like him in my life…

And I want him to know that I will always love him for all the things he was, he is, and he will ever be to me…

I love you Best Friend…

The Ten Truths About Me...

1.                  I try to be the best Mom in the world…although mahirap panindigan, pinipilit kong gawin.

2.                  I openly admit hurting the three people who loved me most in the world:  my MOM, my DAD, and Benjamin…and for this I am so sorry.

3.                  I hate veggies…kaya siguro ganito ako ka-“healthy”.

4.                  My ultimate dream is to be a forensic scientist…bata pa lang ako yun na ang pangarap ko at mahilig ako sa mga movies at CSI like na palabas…pero the irony of it all…takot ako sa patay…

5.                  I am a certified coffee addict…I drink about 8-10 mugs of it a day!  At yan lang ang bisyo kong matindi.

6.                  I always get involved to married or committed guys…kahit younger pa yan or older ba yan…basta commited na guy!  Di ko nga lang maintindihan kung bakit! 

7.                  I am not hard to please…just a simple txt, a smile, a hello, or a buzz sa YM, or a phone call easily puts a smile to my face…pero at the same time, I easily get affected sa mga nangyayari sa paligid ko…di man sa akin nangyayari mismo yung bagay na yun, affected agad ako sobra.

8.                  I am addicted to Chuck Taylors…although I’m not the collector type…gustong gusto ko lang ang Chucks…pag asa mall ako, yun ang una kong tinitingnan or hinahanap ko lagi…

9.                  Once I learned to like something, yun at yun na lang ang ginagamit/kinakain/binibili ko…take for example ZAGU MOCHA GRANDE…un na lang lagi!

10.             I super love Big Bikes, Big Vehicles and Flashy Cars…lalo na kapag kinararera!